Okay… I’m getting old, because even though I have a lot of patience–it’s finding an end. Some of my friends think that my expectations of people is too high, but, I don’t know if I agree. I think it’s more of I know that if a person wants to do something, then they can–providing that they really want it. I guess, it’s easier to give up on your hopes and dreams, but, is it easier to live with dreams unrealized? I highly doubt it. In fact, I think a lot of addictions can be found where unfilled dreams have become ghosts that haunt the psyche.
Why is it that only when faced with mortality, do people realized what they could’ve done? Why don’t people choose to live now? I don’t get it–truly, I don’t. There’s so many things I want to do with my life, so many things I’m going to accomplish. And, I’m grateful for anyone who want to share memories with me. That being said, there are those who aren’t sure what kind of life they want for themselves, or whether or not it involves happiness. And, you know what? I respect that, but, I’m sure that people will understand I don’t want their confusion involved with my clarity. I have no interest in hanging around waiting for other people to decide if they want a life.
I’m in Atlanta right now with one of my best friends and I’m being God-mom. My friend, she has lupus and deals with intense physical pain everyday, and yet, still finds happiness in her three daughters and the happiness they bring. We cherish the small things, like her youngest’s struggle to learn how to walk. She’s got the feet part down, but, the upper body isn’t following the directions she’s giving. Funny, this is how we grow. We keep trying, struggling, working at something until we build up the strength and just “get it”. This is how it all starts for all of us, yet, as we get older we’re less willing to do the work it takes to get to the next level.
I’m inspired by the people in my life, therefore, I’m all about surrounding myself with people who are going to inspire me to be better that I am. I love…everyone, seriously, I do. But, if you’re not about progress, chances are we’re going to grow apart. If you aren’t choosing happiness, chances are I’m going to annoy the hell out of you. 😉 And, no, I won’t be apologizing for it. So, get it together, not for me, for you. But, if you won’t be happy… go, I have a life that beckons to be lived.
Love Peace Happiness N One,