So, I’ve been away lately… but, not far, just in my head. LOL Okay, so that can be pretty far. But, I’m making an appearance here, and who knows, maybe I’ll stay a while.
Every once in a while I go through major transformations as a person, we’re talking the caterpillar/butterfly variety. And, so, I’ve been working on my cocoon and I’m awaiting metamorophosis. So, I’ll let you know what I become. Although…hm…on second thought, you all can tell me. I can promise you this– the result will be a better version of me–therefore, good.
You know…I’m getting old, though, I’m not looking it much and that’s because I’m not stressing things I cannot control–like the world, my family or you guys for that matter. I’m enjoying the world of me. Now, don’t misunderstand, there’s no ego in that statement. I think the ego doesn’t want you to get to know you, rather, it wants to make you into something or someone that meets someone else’s idea of who you should be. And, I don’t know that I’ve ever been down with that–libras truly don’t like being told what to do.
So, I’ve been doing something that many of you get freaked out almost everytime I do it–be quiet! LOL!!! Yeah, I know how to do that. And, acutally, I’m pretty damn good at it. Call it my inner warrior monk taking a vow of silence.
I have this slight inner argument every once in a while where I either want to be seen and heard, or disappear completely. When I want to disappear, I really do and what am I doing during that time??? Honestly a couple of things: 1. Sleeping. 2. Meditating/Journaling (yeah, this isn’t the only place I talk) 3. Exercising. Balance….gotta maintain the balance. Otherwise, Monica wouldn’t be happy. And um… when I’m not happy, it’s best that I’m not around others… I don’t place so nice with the other kids then. See…warning labels! I come with those. Wouldn’t it be nice, if we all could warn one another when we’re wearing our cranky pants? Polite society would say that you should pretend to be wearing your happy underoos–but, damn it, you should be able to be rainy-girl or boy if you want to. Even the sky cries sometimes. We should honor our own inner yen and yang, and provide ourselves and others with the warning labels, that way we wouldn’t lash out at people who have nothing to do with our ick-factor. To be truly honest, it’s abusive to inflict your negativity on someone else, just because their there.
Here’s a question to ponder: If you throw a stone in a lake, how far to the ripples travel?
What if I said that stone was you, and the pond the world? –Takes on a different tone, when I put it like that doesn’t it? What am I saying? I’m saying that you truly do effect the world with your energy, and if you don’t believe me go look in nature–it’ll tell you all you need to know. I believe that to understand nature and how it works, is to understand yourself. People tend to believe that they are above nature and the plants and animals that live here. It’s the most ridiculous thought if you think about it. What are humans but, a species of animal? LOL This and other thoughts like it are what goes on in my cocoon.
Love Peace Happiness N One,