I am so beyond blessed. I often take time out to reflect on my life, myself, where I’ve been and who I surround myself with. And, for quite some time, when I reflect, I reflect happiness. I am, at my very core, this gushing geyser of happiness. The truth is, I’ve always been that way. It’s just that part of the task that is human embodiment is navigating all of life’s distractions, pitfalls, lessons, and test, to discover how strong and amazing you truly are. It’s not about surviving life as it is actually living it. Who I am, is so much better than I could’ve imagined it. As, it never occurred to me, that I could enjoy the quiet as much as I do. Or, that living an authentic life, might make me a standard for someone else. Or, that my words, of my message would come back to me, from the testimonies of people who listened to what I had to say, and applied it to “know” for themselves, that yeah, I might know what I’m talking about.
I think all lightworkers, wise-women, men, or, just spritually aware people felt like they were a bit “extra”, their entire lives. At least I did. I knew at five, that my experience was probably not the same as those around me. And, I think most of my youth was about containing this– I call it fire–that is my spirit. I’ve always burned pretty hot. Youth, is a time that involves everything feeling pretty high-octane. But, I just felt so driven to “do” something, or “be” something. And, over the past decade, I figured out what that “something” was–me. I had all this energy, and I spent so much time just trying to get a hold of it. And, it was hard, it was overwhelming, and, sometimes very painful. But…worth it.
Luckily for me, I’m an incessant talker. Whether its my guides, my diaries–which, I’ve been keeping since I was 13, or, that beautiful invention, the blog… I contemplate all the time. What’s been even more of a blessing is the amount of encouragement I’ve received over my life’s journey. And, the thing about encouragement, is that if you’re open to it, the ways in which it finds you are limitless. Everything from a silent smile, a good bear hug, or a big, gushing, shameless, “Thank You.” Yes, compliments and the generosity of gratitude wasn’t something I was born to be receptive to, but, when I changed my mind about it–I came to realize, that both giving and receiving are equally important virtues. And, I wanted to have both of them.
I am loved. I know that. And, I allow myself to be loved. I don’t know how many people truly allow themselves to be loved, as it does mean you’re exposing your vulnerable sides. Yep, you could get your ego bruised once or twice (or, a million times), but, it sooo worth it. I love that there are so many souls both in body, spirit and ether that love me–because I’ve loved myself enough to both allow it, and to receive it. And, I’m happy to say that I’ve been transformed in every way by this constant flow of yumminess (yes, I really said that.). It’s incredible to find that all my quirks are amusing to me, and not annoying. It’s a beautiful thing to care enough myself to invite certain experiences into my life, and to usher the negative ones out. I’m in the drivers seat, I’m consciously writing my memoirs as I live them.
So, why wait to live the life you want, when the moment you choose to act on it–the universe, both seen and unseen conspires to deliver your life to you? Tonight, I had red wine and chocolate. The special occasion?? It’s Thursday, I’m Monica, and I wanted chocolate. Heehee… My very existence in this realm, in this now moment, was enough of a reason to celebrate. Isn’t yours existence enough a reason for you to celebrate? If you’re reading this, you’re probably breathing–cheers to that! One of the myths I am looking forward to disappearing is that life must be complicated, busy, overwhelming. Nope… it doesn’t have to be any of those things, if you do not choose it. It can be passionate, simple, adventurous and memorable. I’m the most giddy, in nature. I’m overwhelmed by its beauty, it’s personality, and how to goes about its business without my input. I’m most cheerful around my friends. I’m so inspired by the people I surround myself with. I know some extraordinary souls, who make being embodied so much more pleasurable.
So, truly–I’m grateful. I am grateful to every being that has played a role in my journey. I think nirvana, heaven, or paradise, or..whatever you want to call it, can be found the moment you choose to consciously breathe in life–and, realize what an opportunity is to be here in the first place. Oh, and I fully expect this to get even better. So, needless to say, more wine and chocolate will be necessary!
Love Peace Happiness N One,