In order to be whole you must allow yourself to feel everything–wisdom is used when to choosing which feelings require an reaction, or action to be experienced.
If you cannot have a heart to heart with the people you spend the most time with– you are going to starve. And, by that I mean emotional starvation. If you cannot speak from your heart, if you cannot have human dilemma/challenges/confusion/triumph conversations with another person– a. What the hell are you talking about? b. Why are you wasting your time with this?? I mean, let’s be honest–there’s few things that exact the kind of pain a meaningless, empty relationship does. When you have to work at a conversation with someone– this should be a huge red flag. If a person cannot divulge themselves to anyone, if they cannot show who they really are– there’s a problem. –Not your problem, their problem.
You know what would be cool… If everyone said, “Look… this is what I did. This is what worked for me. I’m sharing it with you, but, it doesn’t mean, it’ll work for you. Here’s some tools build your own I AM!” The rules—what freaking rules?! There’s no rules! There’s benchmarks, guide post, suggestions, expressions, but, there are no effin rules! And, this is why what has been, it having such a hard time, speaking to what is to come!
In my refusal to be apart of the crowd, to be normal, or malleable, I annoy some people, and inspire others. And, while I could find amusement in both, I honestly do not put much thought into either. What I have learned in being myself without giving thought to the horde is— I am a better person to others, because I know it doesn’t take away from me being good to myself. Funny how we pick and choose who we are good to, who deserves kindness, mercy, respect, grace, goodness. My approach is until proven otherwise all in creation deserves my best, and in return I deserve their best.
People are so confused about what happiness is. They have been taught happiness is when you’re feeling high off of adrenaline, endorphins, and the ego is getting exactly what it wants, when it wants it. That is NOT happiness… That is an internal chemical high. It is temporary! While I stop short of saying do not enjoy it, I would say keep it in perspective. That is your body reacting to a moment in time of your life. Happiness is a state of consciousness that requires you work through all the falsehoods of yourself as an individual, to get to your essences… your I AM.
Lately, I have been feeling things jarring lose, pulling away from my personal energetic sphere. My aura is a little agitated, static, and my body aches with the releases of what I have been, so, I can expand into what I will become. I suppose if I hadn’t been through this so many times before, I’d be terrified. But, the truth is– I have. Many of us have. We know the routine, we know the discomfort, the lack of sleep, the body aches. We know that bedtime, is conversation time with spirit, with the angels, a time for getting instructions, support, or just to release in general. And, that’s what I’ve been doing. My human “mind” is taking the transformation better than ever. The resistance is minimal, the questioning almost non-existent. Of course the mind wants this to make sense. It wants things to fit into test tubes and petri dishes, unfortunately for it… I burned the science lab down long ago
I’m talking about this, because I finally can. Like many of you, I’ve been on this wobbly, whirling cosmic energetic trip. Feeling dizzy, out of body, disconnected from EVERYTHING. My vision saw the everything as surreal. I was here but, I kinda wasn’t. It’s a lot different then the spin cycle that we’ve all sorta gotten used to. Where everything was moving so fast, you had to keep running to catch your breath–except, the truth is, you should have stopped to catch your breath. All of these energies are here from the universe to rip away what’s not real, what’s not working, what’s not serving you, or us, for our highest good. It must go! You cannot keep it, it’s no longer in energetic harmony of the coming of the new earth, the new human, the new you. Let it go, damn it!
According to spirit, everything will be happening next year. All elements will be making themselves known: Air, Fire, Water, Earth. And, all directions will be affected: North, South, East and West. I’ve seen visions of volcanoes exploding, the ring of fire will be once again erupting. The midwest will have those nasty snowstorms, while other parts of the world will have flooding like you wouldn’t believe. Where I live, the eastern sea board is going to have a very cold, and wet winter. We have maybe one or two real snowstorms aka blizzard, but, probably more susceptible to a Nor’easter than a huge white out. No need for the Ground Hog to talk to us about winter, it’ll be a long one. LOL…
But, this isn’t just my story is it? It’s the story of the human being. The moment we assert ourselves, the moment we emphatically, and strongly use our voices– our individuality, there will be someone, or, many there to accuse us of something. Whether it be, you’re “judmental”, “selfish”, “mean”, “rude”, etc… There will be those who wish you would shut the fuck up, because you’re bothering them. You are giving voice to the insecurities, inadequacies, self-loathing and fear that they have been hiding from both others and themselves. Now, you must pay! You must be stoned, burned, shunned, yelled at, berated, criticized… Any of this sounding familar?